…And so, I’m taking anti-anxiety/depression medication. It’s new. I’m new to this type of medication. I’m new to medicine in general.
This gal (me) has lived over 50 years without needing medicine for much. I have always been healthy. I got hurt at work (read about it at my Unlit Cigarette blog) and so it exacerbated my depression.
That, and a few other things in my life. But, enough about me.
Did you know that anxiety and depression affects around 18.1% of the population? There are so many interesting facts I found here at Anxiety and Depression Association of America.
My daughter and son both have anxiety and depression. My son also has OCD and TS. It can be genetic. I just never realized I suffered from anxiety and depression. I always thought I was just “sad” or not handling things. I’d let things slide. I’ve had panic attacks, but never thought much about it. Certain things happened and I needed to simply handle them better. That was my thought process. Be strong and positive.
It wasn’t until I thought I was having a heart attack while at work, and they called the paramedics. (It was quite embarrassing.) My blood pressure rose to around 158/95 and my pulse was racing. My left arm was numb and tingling and my left chest had these small pains. The top of my head throbbed with a headache and my left jaw was sore. All things that can be explained away.
I really thought I was having a heart attack. It was probably because I watched Grey’s Anatomy and one of the recent shows the heavier woman, Miranda Bailey, had a heart attack and didn’t have any real signs of a heart attack. Women present differently while having a heart attack. On the episode of GA, the male doctor’s, of course, thought because she’s overweight, that it was just a weight problem, or the fact she was anxious, that it was psychological. All of these crossed my mind, as I sat there being looked over by the paramedics. They even did a quick little EKG on me.
They offered to give me a ride to the hospital, but I declined. It cost around $800-$1,000 for that ride. Some would say your health is worth more than that, but they don’t have my bank account.
I decided I would simply go to the emergency room if I felt worse. I didn’t feel worse and continued working through the night.
The next day I found a doctor on my health plan and made an appointment. I still wasn’t feeling quite “right…?” I felt exhausted and tired so I took off a day of work, and went to the doctor the next day. I just was “out of it.” I guess, that’s the best way to put it.
I went to the doctor and he was very keen to find out my mental state, and not look into my actually having a heart attack. I never had high blood pressure in my past, but now I have high blood pressure and I don’t really know why. Other than, I’m in a state of anxiety and depression these days? I am around 25 pounds overweight. (I’ve lost over 12 pounds without trying recently.)
I’m no doctor, so I’m just not sure what’ going on. I do have a lot of stuff on my plate so I’m sure that has caused my blood pressure to spike upward and my anxiety is something I’ve always had. I’m a bit neurotic.
I just didn’t realize I had anxiety and depression.
So, I will try out this new medication and see if I feel any better. I’ll see the doctor in a few weeks and get a physical. I do feel a bit better, and so let’s hope for the best.